Update!

Hey guys,

Sorry I didn't post about my appointment over the weekend. When we got home we started packing up more of our stuff, since we are moving out to my grandma's for a bit while we get our floors re-done. WhichI am excited for the finished product, just not getting there. With my allergies  though, it will good that I get the carpet out of my room and get tile instead. (The tile though is made to look like wood so it looks really cool!) 

The doctor appointment didn't give me the answers I was hoping for, but it was a good start. The doctor said that she had never seen memory loss before in a patient taking the same medication I am, but that doesn't mean it isn't possible. So we are going to do a small experiment and cut my dosage in half. We hope that that will be enough to keep the irregular heart beats at bay but also hopefully not give me as many memory problems. If my heart beats start to go crazy again we may up it a bit, but not to the full dose I am on now. 

I know that I typically post music on Monday's, and I do have a song for today. But I also wanted to give you all an update. Here is a song that I find fun and inspirational. It's called Firework and it is sung by Katy Perry. Hope you enjoy!

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,

Drifting through the windWanting to start again?Do you ever feel, feel so paper thinLike a house of cards,One blow from caving in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep?6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thingDo you know that there's still a chance for you'Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shineJust own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause baby you're a fireworkCome on, show 'em what you're worthMake 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a fireworkCome on, let your colours burstMake 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"You're gonna leave 'em all in "awe, awe, awe"
You don't have to feel like a wasted spaceYou're original, cannot be replacedIf you only knew what the future holdsAfter a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe your reason why all the doors are closedSo you could open one that leads you to the perfect roadLike a lightning bolt, your heart will glowAnd when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shineJust own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause baby you're a fireworkCome on, show 'em what you're worthMake 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a fireworkCome on, let your colours burstMake 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"You're gonna leave 'em all in "awe, awe, awe"
Boom, boom, boomEven brighter than the moon, moon, moonIt's always been inside of you, you, youAnd now it's time to let it through-ough-ough
'Cause baby you're a fireworkCome on, show 'em what you're worthMake 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a fireworkCome on, let your colours burstMake 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"You're gonna leave 'em all in "awe, awe, awe"
Boom, boom, boomEven brighter than the moon, moon, moonBoom, boom, boomEven brighter than the moon, moon, moon And a quick side note, I did update the inspirational quote on the side of my blog! Hope it helps you to keep going throughout your week!

Hope and Love,
Becca

I Thought I Had Dimensia!

Hi guys.
 

Ever since about May, I have been having memory problems. At first it would start out  with small things, like forgetting when I was supposed to meet up with a friend or I'd forget where I put my wallet. Then things started to get progressively worse. I have never been a scatter brain and have always been pretty good when it comes to remembering things. But my mom noticed a change too, she even told me, "Becca, you're kind of becoming a scatter brain!" and we laughed it off... but soon it wasn't funny anymore.

I have been in school for three weeks and I can't remember my schedule. Mom would ask me when a certain class was, and I would tell her a certain time because that's what I thought it was, but once I went and re-checked my schedule, I was wrong. I got two of my classes mixed up, thinking that one started at 2:30 when it really started at 1:30. We thought, well maybe since its a new thing that I have to remember, it'll just take some time. But we found out that I am forgetting to do stuff or forgetting whether or not I have done things that I have been doing for years. For example: I can't remember whether or not I have taken my medication or remember to take them period. I have never had a problem with remembering my medication, and I know how important they are for me so the fact that I may forget them and think I have taken them; I will eventually get worse because I haven't had the medication I need. Ontop of that, I remember to turn my oxygen on at night but when I wake up in the morning and the oxygen is on my floor and not on my face, I can't remember whether or not I even put it on the night before or if it just fell off during the night. And its not like any of this medical stuff that I do is a new routine, I have been doing all these things since I was baby and have never had a problem with it.

Yesterday we went to my primary care doctor and he ran a few tests to test my fine motor skills, balance and stuff like that. He said he would check the list of medications I take (I take 45 pills a day!) to see if any of those could be the cause of it, but he thought that stress and/or depression could be the cause of me forgetting things. But I pointed out to him, I have always been aware of my feelings. When I start to feel depressed or stressed, I am the first person to know so me being subconsciously depressed or stressed didn't seem like it was possible. Well he sent us off and promised to check the medications. We were on our way home when he called not even an hour later and told my mom that the medication I take for my irregular heart beats has the potential to cause memory loss. The article he found said that '3 - 40% of patients suffer from memory loss'.

This is the same medication that caused my Thyroid to become a problem. We have tried to take me off of this medication before and put me on a different one. But without this medication, I started to have the irregular heart beats once more and that is why I had to go back on this medication, which has now caused me to have memory problems.

Not this Thursday but the Thursday after this one, I will be going up to California to see the doctors up there. We will talk to the arrythmia doctor and see what our options are because me forgetting things, especially important things like taking my medication and wearing oxygen at night is not healthy for me. And its intruding on my life. If I can't remember when classes are or when I need to meet a friend for lunch, it clearly interferes with it and it is getting so frustrating for me and my family. The other night, we were talking about how I couldn't even remember my schedule and I just had to sit down and cry because I'm not used to being like this and I don't like how it makes me look irresponsible to others who don't know what is going on with me.

Has anyone else had memory loss or memory problems from some of their medication? If so, what did you do to conter it or help it get better? I'd love some tips and prayers.

Thanks,
Becca